Sunday, December 21, 2008

IM SORRY MAMA


I was busy with school requirements and activities that i was able to forgot it was my brother's birthday. I went home late in the afternoon and was not able to help my mother in preparing the foods. As expected, we had an argument! She was saying many things about me helping other people instead of my family. She even told me that I could not stand on my own feet therefore i must not be boastful of my little achievements. I was able to answer her back which made her very mad. It turned into a fight that she was able to slap me in my left cheek.

The moment she did that, I felt that she was not my mother at all. I was so hurt and i found my self seeking my father's comfort. I told him what I felt towards my mother. He told me to understand my mother and i always do that because no matter what she's still my mother and i will not trade her from any thing in this world. Yet, that situation made me think that I am already 19 and i already could distinguished right from wrong. Yes! I admit that when I answered her back I was wrong but I did that because I was fighting for what i think was right. I felt pity to myself. She should have not told me that because first and foremost, she doesn't know me that much. Sometimes, I even thought that she doesn't care for me at all.

Until now, I am not talking to her not even looking at her. I am not asking money from her or anything. I know for some, what i am doing is not right but for me, it is. I am not mad at her and i don't have any grief. I am only just contented with the present situation. God only knows what i really feel towards her right now. HE knows how i love my mother moer than anyone does.

Monday, October 20, 2008

True friendship: Does it exist???

I was away from school for quiet a long time now. Alone in my bedroom, I asked myself "Is there such thing as true friends or true friendship??". A question I was not able to answer. The following days passed and memories of the past kept on hunting me. I decided to quench my thirst. I checked the internet and i found out things which i never thought existed.
I have learned that friendship involves recognition or familiarity with another's personality. Friends often share likes and dislikes, interests, pursuits, and passion.How can individual recognize potential friendship? Signs include a mutual desire for companionship and perhaps a common bond of some kind. Beyond that, genuine friendship involves a shared sense of caring and concern, a desire to see one another grow and develop, and a hope for each other to succeed in all aspects of life. True friendship involves action: doing something for someone else while expecting nothing in return; sharing thoughts and feelings without fear of judgment or negative criticism.
Some of these information, made me realize that true friends really exist. I cant avoid thinking who among my friends are true to me and who are fakes or the so called toxic friends. I may sound to be a hypocrite judging them but in this playful, phony and temporary world, its wiser knowing whom you can trust and count on to. Let us not be blinded by the saying that we should not choose our friends. Instead, we must remember that "WE MUST CAREFULLY CHOOSE OUR FRIENDS."

Saturday, October 18, 2008

"La Vita E Bella"

Summary:
A family who lived in misery under the cruelty of Nazzis. Guido, a Jewish man, did everything to protect his wife and son. He even risk his life.

Characters:
Guido- a loving and intelligent father who will risk everything for his family.
Dora- a brave mother, full of hope
Giosue- clever and obedient son

Insights
The first time i have heard of La vita E bella, the title of the movie, I wondered why it was its title. I have waited to see the whole movie then when I saw the end part of it, tears fell down from my eyes. I felt relieved when the son found his mother. They hugged each other tightly showing that they were thankful to found each other alived. All the struggles they had flashed back into my mind. Then it made me think and realized that life is not just a matter of survival and reaching one's destination but also the journey itself. If you continue to journey life you will really say that "Life is indeed Beautiful".
MELODY of EMOTION

Smooth sensation clls
Surpassing the grief that hides:
The glory endures.


WAY tO PERFECTION

A noble living
like Him, in Him and with Him
call souls to heaven.

WHAT IF

What if I was not born?
Will I able to see the world's beauty?

What if I was born blind?
Will I able to appreciate life's goodness?

What if I am not me?
Will other persons still likes me?

What if I never met the persons closed to my heart?
Will I be the same person?

What if I have super powers?
Can i make all things mine?

What if I can bring back time?
Will i go back to the times i have made mistakes and correct them?

What if Im in front of you?
Will you say to my face that im insane?

SELF-RELIANCE

The role we play in the society is in our hands to discover. And discovering it follows great responsibility. How will we portray our role in the sense that we portray it the way the society wants? Is it living with in the society's expectations? Dp we need to conform with the society to the extent that we are no longer us?
Let us all remember that God created man with distinct function, unique personality and responsibilities from each other. He gave us life. A stage where veryone has its own role to portray. We are the directors and actors of our own drama in life.
A matter of self trust, self-belief that we can be who we are and who we want to be. trust and belief are some key terms to understand sel-reliance. To trust is to believe. believing is strength and divine to stand and show ourseleves. We should always remember that we are unique. we are distinct.
You may ask then what is self reliance? Self-reliance is an ability to do things other people can not do. It is the capacity to build character and personality that others do not have. It follows a discipline that in every thing we do, we must exert effor, dedication and put our heart into it. By then, you may ask yourself. Is self-reliance on you?

Sadness

Life is full of intersting stories to tell. Along the way, we meet many people that change our lives. Some say that happiness is deep with in us. It is more than having what we want and need. We also have to remember that sadness is also rooted from the depth of our heart.
have you ever experienced being left in a room, shedding tears, plunging into the darkness and feeling like no where to go?
I am always a tough girl and i perceived life in the most positive way I can. I look at failures as a beginning of a victorious journey. I fight for what my latent conviction tells me. Being blinded by this, I never expected that there will come a time that toughness will drag me away to my weakest side. Then I realized that sadness is one of the spices of life. Without this, life would not be as tasty as it is. It would not be colorful in the end if it was not dull from the start.